Hannahboomzx

The sky's been pouring daily for the past week. 

What if, Allah's giving us a chance by opening His skies to accept our duas made during these times? And how often are we taking advantage of this amazing opportunity? 

Exactly. Not much. 

I got to admit, I've been burying myself with assignments and exams, I forgot to stop and make a little dua. 

So here goes:

Ya Allah, bless us in this holy month of Ramadhan. Ease our affairs. Allow us to make the best out of this challenge you've put us in. Ease the affairs of our fathers and brothers to be imams and lead our daily prayers. 

Ya Allah, keep our nation and our families safe from the virus that's spreading like wildfire. Keep our numbers continuously low and allow those infected to heal as quickly as possible. For those whose takdir is to leave this earth, grant them paradise and allow their families to heal from the pain of losing someone in such trying times. 

Ya Allah, allow this virus to disappear as soon as possible. And allow our lives to continue as per normal. But never let us take our freedom for granted, for we know You can take it away at any point in time. 

Ameen. 

I've been having sleep problems ever since I quit nursing a little over 6 months ago. It's weird, I know. On just 4 hours of sleep, I used to be able to survive a full shift, make sure my patients don't die/fall and still head to the gym after. Now, I can barely sit down and study even with 8 hours of sleep. I've been on sleeping pills, pillow mist, sleep balms, duaas, you name it, I've probably tried it. 

Last night, as I was tossing in bed, as usual, it dawned upon me why I used to be able to survive with very little sleep. I remembered every night before I sleep I would ask Allah to help me to fall asleep and still make sure I wake up on time for work. I tried that last night and lo and behold! I woke up feeling fresh with only 5 hours of sleep. maybe this is a wake-up call to make me realise how I've missed Him out in my daily conversations. Maybe I haven't been asking from Him anymore. Nauzubillah, I've felt so complete these past few months, like I don't need His help anymore. But in reality, I need Him more than ever. To help ease this COVID-19 situation, to help me through my degree and to help me through my marriage. 

Another day, another social media influencer drama. All I can say about this whole ordeal is honestly just shut up. If they're not breaking the circuit breaker rules, not illegally gathering, just shut up and mind your own business. Your 'enquiry' or 'concern' you've publically posted is probably going to cause more harm than good. So just... duduk rumah diam diam ok. And by that, I actually mean just keep mum. 

Also, following the great day I had yesterday, today was just, meh. And purely tiring for some reason. In need to constantly remind myself that although I've had good days, there will be bad days and that's okay. 

I just realised how extremely unprepared my family is for terawih this year. With the whole circuit breaker measures, we mentally prepared ourselves to terawih berjemaah at home but apparently, none of us looked it up. We know the basics, but we wanted to have the masjid/void deck terawih feels with the nazar and selawats. Apparently, reading off memory isn't effective. Hahahaha. So we spent quite the time to look up the selawats, the duas and what not. We want the feels and think that we're prepared, but in reality, we're not and we really are just the go je type of people. Hahahhaha. Okayla, make dua for us that we will keep trying to be better at this.