Turning a year older is hitting me hard this year.
Whenever I open up my social media I see friends around my age getting engaged/married. Some going after their degrees, some, already graduated. Heck I have friends my age giving birth, most, living their dreams.
And then there's me.
Five years ago I envisioned myself to be soaring in the job that I love. I envisioned myself to already be going for further studies of some sort. I saw myself still being with the boy I fell in love with at 17. I basically envisioned myself being able to get my shit together, or at least sustain the happy life I obtained in my late teen years.
I'm a week shy of turning 22, and I don't even know what in the world I'm doing with my life. I'm absolutely hating a profession I used to be so passionate about. I'm no where close in getting my degree. I'm broke as heck despite being in a full time job for almost 3 years. I just got out of another relationship, (yeah, I won't get into that. HMU personally if you're really interested in my love life) which obviously means I'm nowhere close in getting hitched. And I'm already considering a career switch after only 3 years of work.
So basically, I don't have my shit together and I have no idea what I'm doing in life and what my future's gonna be like.
Okay, I know I'm still young and I probably shouldn't fret about these small stuff because I still have my entire life ahead of me right? But honestly, it would still feel nice if I had a rough idea on where my life is headed, if I had some form of, direction.
I know Allah has a plan for me. And that he's laid out my entire life out for me and all I gotta do is be insanely patient, which, is an obvious trait I do not posses. I know that there's a reason why I'm still so unsure about what I need to do in my life. Maybe I need to grow more? Maybe I still need to explore myself a little more? Honestly, who knows. All i know now is that I gotta take life one day at a time and hopefully, hopefully I can get my life figured out again.
So here's to all you twenty-something who haven't had their shit figured out. We gon' be okay *fist bump*
