Not gonna lie, I was beyond shooked when my SNM accepted my resignation just like that. No threat to call my parents, no asking me to re-think my decisions, no self-doubt, nada. I'd like thank God for making this such a smooth and easy journey. Alhamdulillah. I mean I've had major panic attacks for the past month, and to know that He eased my way through this is such a blessing. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. I'm pretty sure this was His way of telling me I got His stamp of approval for moving on. Who knows? 🤷🏻♀️
On the other hand, my colleagues couldn't wait to get rid of me, kicking me out of whatsapp groups and what not. Hahaha. They added me back in of course to warn everyone and remind them to send their last wishes. Hahahah. Truly irritating all these people.
I came into the ICU with absolutely no intentions of making friends. Just wanted to come in, do my job and go home. But Allah gave me so much more. He gave me friends. Friends I could easily talk to, work with and just be myself around. Honestly, I've had a more enjoyable time in the past year than I have my entire nursing career. Management is pretty bad but, really, great (non-toxic) colleagues truly make up for it.
There really is a sense of relief knowing all this resignation nonsense is settled, and I don't have to worry about it being rejected and whatnot. But no doubt, I do feel sad and scared to move out of my comfort zone. I mean, I have perfected my craft for the past 4 years. But I believe there are bigger and better things out there waiting for me. And my rezeki, will be wherever He wants it to be. In shaa Allah.
Ending this with a timely reminder of my favourite quote from A Cinderella Story,
"Never let the fear of striking out, keep you from playing the game"
Until next time,
With love, Hannah 💕
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